I was still in his arms even though I knew that we were probably the center of attention once again, actually I didn’t notice anyone but him it was like we were all alone. I couldn’t understand why he took the blame for my mistake and that he forgave me that fast.  Looking into his eyes made my whole world stop. He leaned forward and this time I didn’t turn away, when our mouths nearly touched I heard Bella cough and then I got dragged away from Niall. I was just about to say something not so nicely but she putted one finger in front of my mouth to keep me quiet.
“I just thought that this isn’t a proper place to express your feelings on if you don’t want to end on the first page of every single magazine tomorrow” Niall came up from behind and putted one arm around me.
“She’s right; I don’t want to get you into trouble we have all the time in the world later, let’s get out of here” He took my hand and we started to walk away from the school but I stopped him and ran back to Bella, gave her a hug and whispered.
“Thank you sweetie”
“You can thank me later, now run back to lover boy” she said and winked at me. I did as she said and ran back to Niall again. He took my hand again and looked questioning at me.
“Personal” I said and winked at him.
“Since when is something o personal for me to know?” He said with one eyebrow raised.
“Since I met Bella!” I said with a big smile, he will always be my best friend here since he was the first one I met but I needed a real girlfriend and I couldn’t have found anyone better than Bella. Somehow she reminded me a lot of Alexi, in a good way.

Coming home to Niall somehow feels a bit like coming home, a place where I can relax and be myself. This actually feels more like home than my dad’s place, it is still a bit tense between us and I can say I’m still scared to trust him.
“Hungry?” Niall said and smiled at me.
“No actually not, bet you are though”
“Surprisingly not! I know it’s a miracle but I don’t want to eat up my time with you” He said and dragged me in his arms. He looked straight into my eyes and leaned forward to kiss me, I dragged myself out of his arms and ran into the living room and jumped down in the couch leaving him all surprised there. He came after me and I burst out into laugh when I saw his face.
“What was that good for?” He said acting really upset, and clearly he was to.
“You got to earn the kiss to get one” I said with a mischievous smile.  
“But you nearly kissed me before and then Bella interrupted us!” He walked over to the couch and sat down right next to me.
“But I didn’t kiss you there right?”
“No but...” He said stumbling and I interrupted him and said.
“Ah Ah earn it and you get it, simple as that”
“You’re not playing fair there, I will not fear to steal a kiss from you if I have to” He suddenly got that little twinkle in his again that he always gets when he’s excited.
“What?” I said, he took my had in his and answered.
“What would you say about meeting the lads?” I looked surprised at him.
“Now?” He laughed a little.
“No they are coming in two days and they have been nagging about meeting you since I have talked a lot about you” when he said that last he looked down a little bit ashamed. I moved closer to him and lifted his head up so he looked at me.
“Niall, I would love to meet the lads” He smiled.
“Are you sure? Because you don’t have to if you don’t want” I could see he was a little bit nervous and worried.
“After everything I’ve heard about them I can’t wait to meet them, they’re almost you brothers Niall of course I want to be a part of that too” Now it was his time to blush a little bit and look away. But then he turned to face me again and said.
“You know I want you to be part in that too” I smiled at him and leaned forward. A little bit surprised he looked questioning at me and I answered it with leaning even closer. He stopped me right before I touched his lips and whispered.
“Are you sure now?” I nodded and then felt his soft lips touch mine.

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xx Julia

I didn’t know where I was going just that I wanted to get away from him. As I ran I couldn’t hold it and the tears kept running down my face.
“Carly stop!” I heard someone shout from behind. I stopped and turned around and Bella came against me, I had forgot her she must have a thousands of questions and since I don’t want to lose the only friend I’ve got so far I had to tell her.  
“What’s going on? I mean that was Niall Horan you talked to and just blew off!” I had looked down the whole time and when I now looked at her she saw my tears, she gave me a sad face and pulled me in for a hug.
“I’m sorry Carly, if you don’t want to talk about it its just fine I promise!” I dragged myself out of the hug.
“No Bella it’s okay , I’m going to make it short just so you understand what’s going on” I swallowed before I continued “ I met him by accident when I first got here a couple of days ago and he invited me over to him the day after and I slept there” She was just about to interrupt me but I continued quickly “Nothing happened, or things nearly happened and I dragged myself out of it before things started to get serious because I don’t want to be involved in all this fame thing and he needs to focus on his career” She hugged me again and whispered to me
“It will be fine Carly I promise and don’t be mad but I think he deserves a chance” I didn’t answer but a hundred of different thought went through my mind for the rest of the day. When I didn’t thought of Niall which was kind of hard since he tried to text and call me continuously I thought of how I would be in school tomorrow, I really did not longed to get back.

I heard everybody whisper behind me and as I walked past them everybody was staring at me. Thanks for that Niall I thought to myself but deep inside I knew it was my own fault. I don’t understand how things got like this, okay that was a lie because deep inside I knew that too. He made me fall for him and I was scared of my feelings so instead of dealing with it I ran away like I always do. And I hate myself for doing that every time I don’t understand why I just can’t trust him I know he won’t hurt me on purpose but it’s still scary o give someone your heart, they can break it so easily. I saw Bella waiting for me nest to my locker, she was the only one who didn’t gave me a strange look and whispered behind my back.
“Hey” she said and gave me compassionate look. I smiled at her, she had followed me home after school yesterday and when I had calmed down I had told her the whole story about my dad, the move, Alexi and everything about Niall. I throwed my stuff in and took my books instead.
“Shall we go?” She nodded and we walked in silent against the classroom. We actually didn’t talk through the whole day and I noticed that she gave me worried looks from time to time. And when we had lunch she couldn’t hold it anymore.
“Carly what’s wrong?” I looked up from my plate.
“Nothing” I said quietly and she sighed.
“I’m not dumb Carly even though I just got to know you you’re as easy as an open book” Was it that obvious? I wonder if other people noticed it too and what they thought.
“It’s just” I began but then stopped, I didn’t know what to say exactly or how to describe it “Never mind” I said again.
“You may not admit it to yourself but I know exactly what’s wrong, you miss Niall and you regret what you have done but you’re too stubborn to admit it” I looked down in shame, she was right in everything.
“You’re wrong I just don’t feel very good today” She sighed again.
“You’re a terrible liar and I know that Niall misses you too if that makes you feel better” I quickly looked up at her and she smiled.
“I knew that would get your attention”
“How do you know that?” I said suspiciously. She took up her phone and showed it off.
“Twitter my dare friend, he’s been writing quotes about you all day, the fans are going crazy wondering who you are and they are trying to find you and make you talk to Niall” I looked shocked at her.
“The fans are not mad?” She shook her head with a smile. That was surprising and made me feel even worse than before.
“But he still needs to focus on his career” I said and looked down at my plate again. She sighed highly and leaned forward against me.
“You’re hopeless; you’re just making up excuses to not see him because you’re so scared to get hurt give the boy a chance for god’s sake” I couldn’t help but smile, she was right this was just stupid and I missed him already. I sighed and looked up.
“Okay I admit it you’re right but he’s never going to forgive me after what I did yesterday” She raised one eyebrow.
“Didn’t you hear what I said before about what he wrote on Twitter? He’s probably waiting by the phone in case you are going to call” I smiled again, the thought of that made me all warm.

After the last lesson Bella made me run to our lockers and hurried me all the time. She had a sneaky smile on her lips and I looked questioning at her but she just smiled bigger. We walked through the hall and out of the door and what I saw made me stop abruptly. Niall stood a couple of meters in front of me; I never thought he would come here again after yesterday. I took one trembling step towards him and he did the same.
“I’m sorry” I whispered and even though I tried to swallow the tears I couldn’t stop them from coming. He took the last steps that was between us and pulled me in for a hug. I hugged him back and he whispered to me.
“No I’m sorry” He kissed me on my forehead and I looked up at him.
“I’ve missed you” I said with a trembling voice. He smiled.
“I’ve missed you too”

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I had always wondered about the interest in other people’s business, why people just can’t leave everyone else alone and bother about themselves instead. Niall Horan’s new girlfriend? Was the first that came up on Google and stupid as I am I clicked it and found a article of how someone had spotted him in Mullingar recently hanging out with a girl and now they are directly assuming she’s his girlfriend. Or more correctly they’re assuming I’m his girlfriend. There were no pictures luckily enough so no one knows who I am... yet. Because it is only a matter of time before they know if I’m going to keep hanging out with Niall. This was exactly what I tried to not get involved in. I closed my computer and gave myself a promise to ignore Niall, not only for my sake but for his too, its better if he concentrates on his career. Even though I am sure I’m making the right decision it feels like a stab in the heart to do it.

I opened my eyes and stared at the clock next to my bed, 06.30 time to get up. First day in school, I know I’m supposed to be at least a little bit excited but I’m not, I’m just nervous like really nervous. I thought of what Niall said about school, easy for him to say when he’s all perfect and funny and… I blocked all thoughts about Niall again. Seriously I couldn’t keep my mind clear of Niall thoughts even for a second. I showered, got dressed, fixed my hair and all that and then got stuck in front of the mirror trying to calm down. Okay enough I said to myself, this is going to be perfect you have nothing to be afraid of. I sighed, this just didn’t work I guess I just have to go and hope for the best. I took my phone and saw that Niall had texted me. ‘Good luck today sweetie, don’t be afraid everything is going to be awesome I promise. Felt a little bit lonely tonight without you here, call me later’ Ignoring Niall is going to be harder than I thought. I cleared my mind once again and walked down the stairs where my dad waited for me so he could drive me.
“Let’s go!” He said excited and I rolled my eyes at him he ruffled my hair and laughed at me when I tried to hit him. Not very successfully.
“It’s going to be fine, you have nothing to be nervous for!” I gave him a sarcastic look, I will probably die. He smiled and began to drive against my new school.

I stepped out of the car and dad pointed which way the reception was then drove away. All alone I looked around; the school was pretty big even though it was in Mullingar. But pretty boring too, brown brick walls, big square buildings. Like you would have imagined a normal school, nothing special. I walked against the reception and got my schedule and a map of the school. First lesson History, with the map as my guide I found the classroom pretty fast actually and nervously knocked. A middle-aged man with glasses open the door, he looked at me with a strict glance.
“Can I help you?” I swallowed.
“I’m Carly Wilson, I’m new here this is my first day” His face expression softened and he nodded understanding and let me in the classroom. I looked around, it was dead silent and everyone was looking at me.
“This is Carly Wilson, she’s new here so I expect every single one of you to be nice with her” He pointed for me to seat at the only free chair in the classroom. It was next to a girl who actually reminded me a lot of Alexis somehow. She smiled at me when I sat down next to her.
“I’m Bella, and don’t worry I do not bite” She said and winked at me. I laughed at her at her and immediately knew I was going to like this girl.

After class she ripped the schedule out of my hands and smiled when she looked at it.
“Great you have almost the same lesson that I have except for Math, which means you stuck with me now” She said with a big smile.
“Good, then I will be in good hands I guess”
“Definitely! No one will mess with you when you’re around me” We walked out of the classroom against our next lesson, Bella asked me all about London and what I liked to do and stuffs like that. When I told her I danced and skated she looked surprised at me and then smiled big.
“We are so meant for each other, none of the girls here skates except for me and there are some of them that dance but I wouldn’t count them as my friends” She said and nodded for me to look behind me where I saw a gang of girls standing around a tall blonde girl, I don’t even have to describe here. If she was in a high school movie she would play the bitch that tells you everything you need to know. She saw that I looked at her and walked over to us.
“Warning, bitch arrived” Bella said and I had to cover my mouth not to laugh.
“I’m Sophie and you must be new”
“Yes, I’m Carly” I said and had to cough not to laugh at Bella’s comment again. Sophie looked quickly at Bella and then said.
“I see the pack found you directly, come over to us instead I can show you around I bet we can be good friends” She didn’t ask for me to come over she just assumed I would do as she said and when I looked at Bella she apparently assumed I would obey Sophie.
“I’m sorry I rather stay here, but you’re free to join us if you want too” I said with a big smile, Bella looked shocked at me. Sophie gave out an angry sound and quickly walked back to her gang.
“Way to go girl!” Bella said and gave me a high five.
“Bitch gone, check!” I said and we both laughed. I guess this wasn’t as bad as I thought.

The day went fast and school was over sooner than I thought. Bella and I walked out of the school and right outside the doors there was a bunch of people who stood around something or someone and most of the girls screamed and some of them even cried. I looked into the crowd trying to figure out was caused all this attention and spotted Niall in the middle of it all. My heart nearly jumped out of my chest, what was he doing. I took Bella’s hand and tried to slink by the crown unnoticed but unsuccessfully.
“Carly!” Niall screamed and all of the girls looked at me when he ran against me. Bella looked surprised at Niall and gave me a questioning look. Of course everyone around here knew who he was, and now everyone around here knew who I was too.
“Hey Girl!” Niall said and hugged me, I took one step away from him and looked nervously around me, all the attention was on us and some of the girls gave me a deadly look. He looked strangely at me when I stepped away from him and tried to catch my glance but I avoided looking at him.
“Carly what’s wrong?”
“You shouldn’t have come” I said and started to walk away from him but he captured my hand and made me turn around and look at him. When I looked at him it was hard to keep the tears away but I swallowed them and said.
“Niall, let go of me” I said tense.
“What’s happened Carly? Talk to me!” He said desperately.
“Please Niall let me go, it’s better of like this” I saw that he began to understand what I was actually saying.
“Carly I thought we talked about this please don’t” I interrupted him.
“It’s too late Niall, I have already done it” I shook his hand of me, ran away and left Niall alone with the crowd.

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Finally the chapter is up! Haven't had the time to write before, hope u like it!
xx Julia