I can admit it I cried a lot on the plane and deep inside, I was deeply worried about this. I was scared to be the new girl, scared to meet my dad again and scared of the change. Because there was no doubt that things were going to change, what if it wasn’t a good change? They called out that the plane was landing and everybody had to fasten their seatbelts. I looked out of the window and examined my new home.   

I looked around at the airport trying to find my dad and saw a tall pretty muscular middle-age man waving with a sign that said ‘Welcome Home Carly’. I had actually pretty much forgotten about how my dad looked or more likely repressed it. That was how I handled hard things; I repressed them and put them aside, stopped thinking about them. Because I hated crying it made me feel weak and exposed.
“Carly over here!” My dad yelled and caught my attention. I started to walk over to him with a fake smile on my lips, act like nothing is wrong I told myself over and over again. He met me halfway and took me in for a big hug which surprised me a lot.
“I’ve missed you so much it has been so long since I saw you!” I wasn’t the one who left us, you got yourself to blame I thought and had to bite my tongue to not say it out loud.
“Yes it’s fun to see you again dad” He took a step backwards without letting me go and examined me from top till toe.
“Wow, you have grown so much! My little girl is becoming a woman!”
“Yes I guess so, a lot can happen in four years” I said and hoped that he got the little message about how long it was since he met me. 
“Carly you got to understand that I had no choice but leaving you, it’s hard to explain but I hope that you can forgive Me.”
“No actually I don’t understand but I just have to accept it now since I’m stuck here with you right?” I know it were spitefully to accuse him like that and I regretted it when I saw how hurt he got by my words but he needs to know what he did to his family.  
“I’m truly sorry Carly and you’ll see that Ireland isn’t as bad as you think I promise”
“We’ll see about that” I said sarcastically.

The ride from the airport to dad’s house in Mullingar can be described as very awkward. It was most my fault actually, dad tried to start a conversation a couple of times but I wasn’t in the mood for any talking. I looked out the window the whole way home trying not to think too much and time passed pretty fast because he next thing I saw was a big white house. I got out from the car and wondered how he could afford a house like this, my mum’s little apartment was nothing against this. Apparently my dad saw my big surprised eyes because when I looked at him he smiled and I saw maybe a little bit hope in his eyes, probably hoping that I liked it.
“So should we go in and I can show you your room?” If my room were even half as good as the outside of this house I would be more than happy.
“Yes” I answered and gave him a real smile, first real one today actually.

He opened the door to my room and I slowly walked in and was amazed. My room was almost bigger than our old apartment, this was not as half as good as the outside of the house it was ten times better.
“You haven’t seen the best yet!” my dad said and went to open a door in my room that I hadn’t even noticed. It led into my very own walk in closet!
“Wow dad, this house is perfect! My room is perfect!” It made him happy to hear me say that, good because I still felt guilty for being rude to him at the airport and in the car maybe this could make up for that.
“I told you that it wasn’t going to be as bad as you thought!”
“You said Ireland wasn’t going to be as bad as I thought, I’ve only seen my room. I got the whole town to se before its time to decide if it’s bad or not.”
“But it’s a good first impression at least! I will leave you to pack your things up, come down when you’re done and I will make us some dinner.”
“Okay sounds good!” He gave me a little smile and then closed the door and I heard him walk down the stairs. I jumped down on my bed and looked around and examined every single bit of the room. It was big and almost everything went in a tint of blue color, I was surprised that my dad remembered that blue was my favorite color. I walked over to my desk and noticed a laptop on it; he had even brought me a new laptop! I can’t say that I didn’t like all this, I mean I’m not used to having this kind of luxury. But if he thought he could buy my love he was terribly wrong. I started pack up all my things and found a picture of me and Alexi, when I saw it I couldn’t keep the tears away. I wonder what she’s doing now I thought to myself. I missed her a lot already. I put the picture next to my bed, whatever happens I will always have Alexi even if she’s miles from here she will always be there for me when I need her. When I was finished i dried my tears away and decided that they were my last tears that I’m dropping on things I can’t change anymore this was my new life I have to accept it and make the best out of it.

“I’m going out for a while!” I screamed to my dad.
“Take your phone with you and don’t get lost please!” Like I would get lost in little Mullingar? If I handled London I would probably handle Mullingar too. I took my skateboard and went out. I wasn’t paying attention to where I was going but I made the skateboard go faster and faster through the neighborhood and suddenly out of nowhere I saw a boy in front of me and I didn’t had time to stop so I went directly in to him and flew of the skateboard and landed harsh at the ground. I groaned and tried to stand up but fell down again when i tried to stand on my foot, god it hurts.
“I’m so sorry I didn’t saw you coming are you okay?” I looked up at the boy, he was probably a little bit older than me, had blond hair and I got lost in his beautiful blue eyes.
“No it was my fault I shouldn’t have gone so fast!” I tried to get up from the ground but once again I fell down and groaned.
“Shit!” my foot hurts so badly. The boy looked worried at me.
“Are you okay?” He said and sat down next to me.
“No not really, my foot hurts like hell!”  
“I live in the house right over there” he said and pointed at the second house from where we sat and then continued “I can help you there and either drive you to the hospital or call you parents or something?”
“Thanks but I’m okay I think I just need to sit down and rest and it will be better in a little while!”
“You do not look that okay, please let me help you?” He looked at me with a glance that I couldn’t say no to.
“Okay then.” I answered and was just trying to get up again when I felt his arms around me and suddenly  he had lift me up from the ground and started to walk over to his house.
“What are you doing! I can walk by myself!” He gave me a look that silenced me directly but I sighed high to show him that I wasn’t happy with this. He laughed at me.
“I’m Niall Horan by the way.” he said and gave me a big smile.